We all have dreams and desires. The older we get the more reality sets In, yet we still dream of what might be or what could have been. While we all dream and still imagine, there is One who always knew and always cared. In fact, He knew us before we were even "us"!
God has uniquely designed each of us for His purposes, not our own. The better we get to know the God Who deigned us the better we know ourselves and what we should be doing. When our desires line up with God's design life begins to make sense and have purpose.
It's probably time for a little talk with our Father. Let's seek His wisdom and guidance. When is then last time we spent some real one on one with Him? "How God? When Daddy? Why that? Why now? I need Your help!"
Ask God for the wisdom to know His unique plans for you and then ask for the courage to carry out those plans. Life will begin to make more sense. . . .